Stats Suck Sunday

I let myself have a yucky week. I didn't even write a post for PPT. It is beyond my understanding when I make the choice to be miserable. I would much rather be full of joy. People around me would certainly appreciate it! I'll try to keep today's post positive to make up for not writing on Tuesday!

• We had 12 inches of snow on Friday. It is not unusual for this area. All 30 some counties in the Texas Panhandle have had burn bans in effect for months. The driest winter I can remember in my 28 years here. The kicker? It was 70 on Thursday & up to 70 today! Crazy panhandle weather.
• I have yet to miss a Roadshow broadcast. Check the link for days & times. It streams live every date on ustream. I never tire of the songs or the message.
  
• We got up to 260 or so at one time in the Roadshow's chat room. With the variety of bands on the line-up, there is also more traffic during the stream. Younger traffic. Impatient younger traffic. Was I ever like that? (absolutely!)
• These children have tried my patience. I want them to go away, but then that wouldn't be very good for my spirit. I think the lesson for me is to be patient. Jesus did not turn away a single person who was seeking Christ and neither should I.
  
• I am going to the Roadshow in Dallas on Friday. And maybe the show in OKC on Saturday. Am supposed to meet a couple of people I have met through the MM concerts when they streamed live last fall. I'm kind of excited. My husband & daughter think I've lost my mind! It's really a trip to refuel my mind.
• I'm still debating about whether or not to spend time making a t-shirt for the Roadshow. It is part of a contest. You get backstage passes and good seats. For free. It is recommended the the shirt be done in puffy paint to please the judge, Mike, from 10th Ave North. Ha, ha.
• I continue to thank God for my newest friends. What a blessing this guy is for bringing great concerts for FREE on the worldwide web! People who love me (even over the internet). Accept me and don't judge me. Kinda like the peeps at NA. I am not worthless. I have value and love giving back what was so freely given to me. Amen!

Time to do a few more thing before the show starts tonight. :)

Stats Suck Sunday

Is it Sunday? Already?! It has been a busy week! Following this guy and The Roadshow can keep a person busy; if I let it.

• Still no job. Lots of calls after I updated my resume on Monster, but just recruiters calling for more info.
• Have been having a wonderful time on RSTV 4 nights already this week. One more show tonight before a 3 night break. A lot of new people have been joining in. It's great!
  
• My husband, once again, thinks I've lost my mind! Why doesn't he understand? It is such a great time of fellowship.
• Unemployment reviewed my previous 2 weeks and decided I was eligible for benefits in that time period. Doesn't help stop the "phone calls" yet. 4 weeks will pay at once this week. Maybe I can get caught up. It's giving me nightmares. Just surrender all. It's that easy.
• My daughter decided that it's too expensive to graduate (in less than 2 months) from college. Why? I asked. The price of announcements and the cap, gown, and tassel. I didn't send her to Baylor for her to think a few more dollars is gonna matter now!
• No job for her yet, either, but she had 2 different interviews with Dillard's this week. One in Waco & one in Houston. For internship positions.
• Spring is here. Woke up to sunshine & blue skies. By 11am it was overcast & kind of gloomy. I want 70 degree days and NO wind (unheard of here).
• Saw a sign: "I promised myself this would be a good day". Actually God promises every day will be good if we just surrender our will! Why is that so hard sometimes? I want it NOW, God. Don't you understand? Surrender leads to freedom. What's better than that?

Be sure and check out The Rock and Worship Roadshow website. These guys have worked so very hard to bring us FREE online concerts. Check the dates and times and join us for a live feed.

Positive Post Tuesday

This is the most positive thing I can think of today. Join us at 7PM MDT on ustream: http://www.ustream.tv/channel/the-rock-and-worship-road-show

Stats Suck Sunday

This week has just flown by! It has not been a great week, but I have to find the little slivers of hope & joy & hold on to them. So, it's time for SSS.

• My friend, Brody, whom I've never met, got me started on this bullet point for Sunday's.
• Brody is carrying about 50 computers (well, maybe just 2 or 3) on board his flight to Denver. He will meet up with this guy, Kyle who is also a technical marvel. They get to get on a bus heading for Billings, MT.
  
• The Roadshow starts in two days!!!! The first stop is in Billings, MT. The show begins at 7pm, MDT. Go to The Roadshow's site & there will be a link for all 20 concerts.
  
• We actually got 1 & 1/2" of snow on Friday. Was predicted to be 6 to 9". Glad it wasn't the later, but we did need the moisture. Today is supposed to be in the 60's, tomorrow & the next day? 70's.
• I'm excited to see what this guy has to say after taking a blogatical for the past month. So far this morning (since 12:01am) he has been a little cryptic. But, that's one of the things that makes him interesting.
• I don't like the new home page on facebook. Boo. Amanda says they've changed it several times in the 4 or so years she's been on fb.
• I hope unemployment sees that I turned down a job in another state because of how long it takes to "reciprocate" my license. Plus, with my license on probation, some states may not accept my application. This is after spending several hundred dollars before I even send in the application! I really need my benefits. I had bills coming out of my overdrawn account & bouncing back to the creditors. Not good. I don't like questioning my faith, but doggone it! Where is that open door? Why can't I see it?
  
• Our friend, Robert, who had a massive heart attack 4 weeks ago went home this week! The day he had the heart attack the cardiologist told us he didn't expect he would leave the hospital. Miracles do happen.
  
• My sister-in-law came to see her mother (the one who has cancer). Got to see her one day this week & visited for 2 hours! Face to face! Sometimes a phone call just doesn't cut it. I wish we lived closer again.
  

Well, off to my NA meeting, then NA area meets and I'm part of that group, too. I sure am doing a lot of service work while I'm unemployed! It keeps me busy & helps give me a routine. I am blessed and I know God will reveal that open door. When He is ready, not in my time! But, I get so impatient! :)

Positive Post Tuesday

Well, it's been Tuesday all day long, and I have pondered all day long. What is positive today? Right now. I could still continue to be ticked that I still don't have a job. I could be negative because I have bills to pay & my unemployment didn't deposit today AND the stupid Workforce Commission was "unable to handle my call" ALL day long. No way to leave a message, nothing.
Then I go to Aftercare. It's every Tuesday night. It's a combination of people from all walks of recovery. Mostly people who are in or have been in IOP (intensive out-patient treatment program). It is one of the requirements of my board order. Tonight, the topic was gratitude. One guy, who is the philosophical one of the bunch, told us how he felt that 1st night in IOP. It reminded me of how I felt. Everything he said, I either felt or went through. Sometimes it's good to have those little reminders to make me grateful that I am an addict.
Grateful to be an addict? Yes. A recovering addict. God had my life planned out before I was born, before I took my first breath of air. That is hard to wrap my head around sometimes. The people I have met in recovery, the reconnection with God, and the people I have met through a live, streaming concert last fall. Wow. So many things that God has put in front of me. I am grateful I don't have to make any more decisions without help. It's all God. Whether it's me listening for His take or the people God puts in my life to give me their advice, it's God.
Do I still have guilt & shame? Yes, but I don't have to dwell on it. It is more of a fleeting thought. I do have amends to make, but I'm not equipped with the tools I need yet. That's the beauty of working the steps. They show me how to take my life back, one step at a time. Along with God, working the steps show me how to live. And how to act rather that react. How to be excited about what's ahead in my life.
I am grateful to be clean. 20 months tomorrow. Wow! 2 years ago I had just been in Austin, before the Pharmacy Board. Scared to death. Feeling like no one was on my side. Nothing was my fault. I was in control. Now? I'm sitting here shaking my head! Who was that girl? She was so sick. I believe it is a huge part of recovery for me to pass my story on to others. That's what was done for me & it helps refuel me today to pass on my experience, strength & hope. What a joy. What an honor. Now that is positive.

Stats Suck Sunday

Ok, it's Sunday. I think I have that much right! My life in bullet points.

• We had so much wind yesterday, our sky was brown. There has been almost no measurable moisture this winter. Two 1" snows. That's it. So, when the wind blows in the Texas Panhandle (and it does every day), it looked like the Dustbowl pics.
• Lots of dust also means: ALLERGY problems. Runny nose, watery eyes, phttt feeling.
• There is no wind today. Yeah!
  
• Daughter didn't come home on her last Spring Break. Boo.
• Husband's birthday is Wednesday. 59. Not a clue as to what he wants or needs. Boo.
• Our friend, Robert, who had the heart attack 3 weeks ago & was pretty much dead? In a regular room now, with no tubes, no iv's, just heart monitor. Praise God. Thank-you to all who have been praying. He's not "well". He has a lot of damage that cannot be repaired.
  
• Have had fun following this guy as he travels from Sacramento to Nashville across I-40. Helping his father-in-law move his stuff.
  
• The Roadshow starts in 10 days. Billings, Mt. The website has TONS of info on who & where & other such info. I know I'm excited.
• Still no job. No offers. Very few calls. Those calls are usually for jobs far, far away. Can't relocate without hubby. The economy is very scary.

Well, time flies when you're having fun. I am done with this post. And it hardly took any time. I think.

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Positive Post Tuesday

Here it is, Tuesday. What is positive? Well. The Rock & Worship Roadshow begins 2 weeks from tonight!!! I am so excited that I am going to skip my usual Tuesday night meeting, so I don't miss a thing that 1st night. My husband doesn't realize I'm getting ready to committ to this tour like I did last fall. He really thinks I've lost my mind! He has finally accepted that I am going to Dallas on April 3rd; my daughter hasn't, but that's her problem. It's exciting to think about meeting fellow twitterers. All because of the plan laid out by this guy. He is bringing the world together through the internet! It's a rockin' thing to be a part of.
I really tried to pay attention this past weekend to the streets around the American Airlines Center so I can do it by myself in a month. My daughter did all the driving & my husband rode shotgun. The police really have it organized before & after an event. Mapquest & igoogle maps are my friends!
The other positive thing is that our friend that suffered the massive coronary 2 & 1/2 weeks ago is in a regular room today! He came off the vent a week ago, the balloon pump Tuesday night, and most of the meds that had been keeping him alive. It is truly a miracle. The doctor said the latest tests show only 23% of his heart is damaged-not 70%. He was not expected to leave the hospital on the day he was admitted. I can never thank people enough for the prayers for this man they did not know. I have so many new friends & they are dear friends-even though we've never met. We have become a part of each other's lives. This is the future of relationships, I think. The internet has provided a forum from which we do develop relationships. And they are true & good.
It has been a good day. Even though I griped about doing laundry. My husband usually does it so I don't kill my back, but we were gone on Sunday (normal washin' day). I swear my dryer has the lowest & deepest hole to reach in to! I sometimes have to get a hanger to reach the stuff at the back! But, it's done & so am I today.

Stats Suck Sunday

Good Sunday morning. It's time to throw out some bullets. It's all this guy's fault!

• I'm in Dallas for a hockey game between the Dallas Stars & the Pittsburgh Penguins. We are Penguin fans. It's all Amanda wanted for Christmas.
  
• It's chilly in Dallas. I wanted warmer weather. I think it's nicer in Amarillo.
  
• I definitely chuckled when I checked this silly guy's SSS. He is a real nut when it comes to fun pictures.
• I still don't have a job. I may apply to be a census taker person. I think that is a scary job.
• I'm getting excited for The Rock & Worship Roadshow to get started! What a great line-up.
• The above means a road trip back to Dallas on April 3rd. Hopefully meeting up with AkayaLivin4JC & silly4him (and her husband). And possibly katwomane327. We have never met; except thru twitter (and previous MM concerts on-line).
  
• Heading to the mall. Imagine that! Then the game at 2pm. Then out to eat somewhere in Dallas.
• Ate at Pappadeux last night. It was spectacular. It's fun to come to the BIG city. Once in a while.

Talk to you all during the game. Have a great day!