Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Positive Post Tuesday

I have been in kind of a frumpy mood the past few weeks. Not doing a PPT because I felt I didn't have anything positive going on in my life. I don't know why we get like this. God is right there with us, every step of the way. So where does the frump come from & why? I've decided it's to learn something. I am so thankful God is so faithful. Because I am not so much of the time.
A lot of my frustration is work, or the lack thereof. I really burned a lot of bridges in my active addiction. Lost a lot of co-workers trust. This led to lower self-esteem. I have come a long way in 22 months of recovery. I have confidence in myself again. I feel good about myself again. A lot of pharmacies don't want to have to "supervise" me 4 hours a week & write a quarterly report. Being unemployed since November has kind of deflated my self-esteem again. I know "this too shall pass" and "the right job is out there". But, living on unemployment stinks. I make more in 1 day than the max that I get from unemployment in a week. It has been a humbling experience. A learning experience.
My most positiveness comes from my daughter right now. After 4 years at Baylor, she is graduating. She never changed her major and is graduating on time! Thank goodness. Saturday she walks across a stage, Monday she walks into a job! The job isn't necessarily marketing, but could turn into that. She had to lower her sights a little and watching her go through that has been encouraging to me. But, she is ok with it. I know she will miss her church & many friends in Waco, but she is only an hour away. She has left her mark at her church by volunteering her time for the Children's Church for the past 6 months. They are being gracious enough to let us use the kitchen/dining area Sat after graduation for dinner for all of our family that are coming.
Her job? I can now show you. You need to go to this website. It is an impressive place. I know she is excited because one benefit it is free use of the exercise room & there is cycling. She loves the cycling! This is in a beautiful, wooded area in SW Austin. It is the Lake Austin Spa Resort. I am excited for her. She is so outgoing, that I know she can make a mark there. She has many friends in Austin & family an hour north. It's about 8 hours for us.
It's funny really, how God works. Last year my niece took a job at a school about an hour from us! Now, Amanda will be about an hour from my brother!
Life really is good. I MUST find that positive part of each day. No matter how down I feel. There is always something to learn from every single day. Good or bad. Positive or negative. It is all a blessing from God.
Have a great Tuesday!


Anonymous said...

I'm glad you were able to post today. I can relate to the funky kind of mood thing. You sound like you are making great progress in your recovery, I will be praying for added endurance & perseverence. Today may be PPT but I find many of your tweets encouraging whatever day of the week. Blessings, Connie

Paisley said...

I relate to this but in an opposite kind of way. I have a job that I have always loved up until the last year and now I am miserable there. I am at a point in my life that I just want to stay at home and not work outside the home. I feel guilty even thinking this because at least I have a job when so many do not. Not sure that I can find any positive in my work situation but I do feel God wants me to go through this, maybe there is a lesson in this that I need to learn.

I am so happy for Amanda and the resort looks really nice. I hopes gets the benefit of some of the massages too. What a great way to relax.

Kelly (race_12_1) said...

After I got sick I cried every time I went into my store and every store in my district. The day I realized "I am not going to ever be well enough to go back" was heart wrenching because that was my career-that I poured my heart into

To know you want to go back-that you desire to go back-and just waiting-must be similar. For me I could not have gotten past that except to remember that my identity was not in what I did but who I was in the Lord. No matter how much money you make and no matter where you spend your time that identity will never change.